After all you’ve been through

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Ego:

Oh baby—

how I’ve tried to kill you,

so many times.

Tried to stab your heart,

so you’d never grow into me.

Tried to spare you

the agony

of this wretched existence.


Yet you’re stronger than me.

Stronger than the world.

Stronger than the forces that

tried to eviscerate,

engulf,

erase you.


Baby:

But what did I ever do?

I only saw the darkness,

heard the curses,

smelled the rot

they hid in silence and smiles.

And I became the vessel—

the darkness, the curses, the rot—

they buried in my bones

because they couldn’t

bear it themselves.


Ego:

I know. I know.

They made me believe

that was you.

Until I realised—

we were only mirrors

reflecting

the truth they refused.


Baby:

Then protect me

since no one else could.

Carry the grief

of ancestral shame—

a thousand lives exiled—

and transmute it

into truth.


Ego:

I never asked for this—

this burden.

I resent this.

I resent you. 

I won’t lie and promise

I’ll never leave you again.

But I will try—

to witness you,

to honor your truth.


Baby:

I’m disappointed.

And scared.

But I am proud of you.

To try is enough,

after all you’ve been through.

If you can’t protect me, 

seeing me is enough. 

I’ve been waiting lifetimes

to be seen

by you.


…


Ego:

Who are you, really? 


Baby:

I’m the oldest soul you’ve ever known.



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